cicakx1

Closing tis part of my life.
Will be more active in another link!
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1. Don't act like u know everything.(you know who you are)
2.Mind your own fucking business.(you know who you are)
3.Stop with your bad-mouthing of me,its helping me in becoming famous.
4.Stop thinking like i was born yesterday to believe the pix(u know who) was taken by calista,when the fact is you're using the laptop.ZzZZz. Lame-fuck.
5.Stop being hypocrite.
6.I really think there's no more 'us'.
7.Stop contacting me/text or watsoever.
8.I know you're not the same anymore.
9.U really gave a bad reputation to me by covering up your ass and bitching about my only mistakes. Unforgiven.
10.Stop acting innocent in front of you friends and have the virtue to tell them its YOU who wants to take the drugs. MTF.
11.You can fuck off to any guys out there i dnt give a fuck abt it.
12.Sick of your frickle minded behaviour.
13.I HATE YOU-yeah you read it right,
14.I dnt need you in my life.-again, you read it right.
15.Nvr appreciate the one who really loves you.
16.Dnt want a girl who's easily pillion by other guys till late-morning.
17."I will NOT hesitate to slap you in the face the next time I find out what you are doing to her."-do i look like i won't retaliate?
18.Fuck off from my life.
19.To those who wants to meddle in our affair,be rationale and think in different views before opening your bloody mouth.Otherwise GET A LIFE!
20.AM VERY GLAD TO BE THE FIRST ONE HAHA!-You know what i m saying.

Summary.
Had enough of your despicable acts.
Go,hold on to your words.
At least you gave yourself some respect.
PSEUDO LOVE

Its been so long since i really broke down.
Not for anyone out there.
Not if its the person i really love.
But yesterday night,history repeated itself.
I dnt know why but upon holding her close to me,and the very second when i came near to kiss her,tears just start to roll freely.
Maybe because i really missed her.
And of course,love her.
I just could not help myself.
See baby,how much you've affected me?
But i know things won't change your feelings now.
Mistakes were made and there goes everything.
Yet,i m grateful and appreciate for giving me that chance to spend the night with you.
It helps me alot and chases away the missing-ness i have for you.
After everything,i m forced to accept the reality that you are gone forever.
Nothing seems to move you.
Maybe cuz of me.
And even till now i still dnt know why your mom have to dislike me when i've never done anything to offend her.
Some questions are meant to be unanswered.
Aite,love can't be forced and so do relationships.
This is the most bitter truth i have to face.
This is the reality.
I love you but there's nothing i can do now to make up right?
Sigh.
Please take care or yourself and excel in life.
All those swearings and curses,i m really sorry about it for following my anger too much and didn't think.


I'll try not to bother you because i know u will say that i m irritating and stuffs,but again i must say i m sorry in advance if in any time in the future i drop u a text or a call to ask about your well-being and stuffs.
If in any time the hatred is gone and u feel that u needed me again,i gladly tell you my arms are waiting for your return.




P/S:I love you baby,i really do.

Hello Misery.
Hello Forlorn.
Hello Heart aches.
This relationship is abysmally destroyed.
Maybe i am to blame.
Or maybe you're the same.
But why do you choose it this way when we can settle it peacefully?
Or are you just using this reason to get rid of me?
Whatever it is.
The reason is absolutely beyond acceptance.
I don't understand whats going on in your head.
Maybe its just a pseudo love that you are giving.
If not it you won't come to this heartless conclusion that you just gave me this morning.

U want me gone?
Cos you wanna party?
And that this fucker here is controlling you?
Tsk..so be it..
Cos i'm tired of consoling.
Tired of begging.
Tired of you not appreciating.
Tired of your mega EGO.
Don't you know that i love you?
Sigh.
Somewhere far along this road, he lost his soul.
To a girl so heartless...
How could you be so heartless?
This love here is not for your disdain.

The wind is cold at night...
But your actions are colder..
-sigh-

gone.
there's nothing i can do now to make things fine.
i've had enough of u fooling me around,making me sounded like childish and making me plea and whine about u when u in another hand dun give a fuck.
I too have feelings in me.
I've always wanted to mend things but u dnt seem to care.
"Don't talk to me about this!" "If u wana argue then get the fuck out of my house!"
Enough is enough.
I m not a toy u think u can play with and then dumped me anytime u want!
If i am not important to your life then say it to me.
Don't come and say u love me and at the same time u wana see us tear apart!
I have,had love you so much.
But i dnt see the same thing for me.
No doubt its hard for me to type nw but yeah,i gotta say it all before it eats my heart alive.
Why do u have to hurt me so bad??
Do u noe dat it sucks to be missing u??
I asked u out u said"i needa study"
But fuck a couple hours later and u simply text me like there's nothing happen."i gng out with DAN" WTF?
If u dnt wana give a fuck about improving our relationship be frank!
I fucking waited for u for two fucking hours alone and when i say "have fun" u replied me saying dat u otw home alr.WTF? Not even a fucking sorry?
U dnt seem to realised all this till the day that i will fucking disappear totally.
Dnt when i ask u out n u'll give a whole load of pile craps rejecting my date with you.
Well i have  been keeping quiet for too long and watching things that i dnt like being done by u without saying any shit.
U wana say i m childish?Take a good look at urself.
i've nvr acknowledge any broke ups from u.
but u r d one who's fuckin determined to do so.
this is it.
gd bye gerl.
ALL THE BEST IN UR NEW LIFE!
Fuck.

p/s:LEAVE ME ALONE IF YOU STILL THINK DAT I M PLAYIN IN TIS RELATIONSHIP!

N'sync-Gone

There's a thousand words that I could say
To make you come home (yeah)
Seems too long ago you walked way
Left me alone
And I remember what you said to me
Kept on acting so strange
And maybe I was too blind to see
That you needed a change

Was it something I said, to make you turn away
To make you walk out and leave me cold
(Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm)
If I could just find a way
To make it so that she'll be right here
right now

::Chorus:
I've been sittin here
Can't get you off mind
I try my best to be a man and be strong
I drive myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
Your gone (gone)
Gone (baby your)
Gone (your gone)
(Baby girl you're) Gone
Gone
Gone
Gone

I don't wanna make excuses babe
Won't change the fact that your gone (no, no)
But if there's something that I could do
Won't you please let me know
Time is passing so slowly now
'Coz what's my life without you
Baby I could change my every day
Baby I don't want to

I'll just hang around and find some things to do
Take my mind off missing you (take my mind off you)
Yes I know in my heart you can't say that you don't love me too
Please say you do

I've been sittin here
Can't get you off mind
I try my best to be a man and be strong
I drive myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
Your gone (gone)
Gone (baby your)
Gone (your gone)
(Baby girl you're) Gone
Gone
Gone
Gone

Am I there in your heart
Baby why dont you see
That I need you with me

Gone

I've been sittin here
Can't get you off mind
I try my best to be a man and be strong
I drive myself insane
Wishing I could touch your face
But the truth remains
Your gone (gone)
Gone (baby your)
Gone (your gone)
(Baby girl you're) Gone
Gone
Gone
Gone

Loneliness grips me tight.
Its been 5 days seen i last saw u.
Argue,work,study are the reasons for us not able to meet up.
Everyday my wish is just being able to see you.
It doesn't matter if its just a couple of minutes.
As long as i can see you and feel you its enough to make my day.
The addiction to see you is so strong.
I miss you baby girl.I really do.
I hope you feel the same way too.
I am easily angered,lost of mood,low morale and feel so fucked without you by my side here.
I miss  those days when i wake up and see you next to me.
I really need those calming arms wrapped around me.
Those luscious lips to put me to sleep.
I miss all of it ma...
But most importantly is those precious times we spent together communicating and enjoying each other's company are what i missed much.
And now you are not feeling well and have aches here and there.
It makes me worried even more.
Get well soon baby..
I miss you so much.
I swear it's true.
Looking forward to see you...


Ps:
-LOVESICK-
                                                                                                   

Hey we meet again....
Evening till night with baby..
Went to PS catch Dark knight but no slots..
Head down to Lido..
Met up wanto,zul,ziq n a few more guyz...
Proceed to KRISH next.
HAHA!
Baby got so agitated by the songs played there...
Its been quite sometime we-bois go out like yesterday...
Unfortunately not all of d BOIS there...
P smashed the dancefloor wit his jumpstyle..
-Cool-
Btw i m so pissed off to be told last minute bout guard duty on Sun..
Fuck it watever it is i ma take it like a man..
Fuck regular life.
i miss my baby girl....

Tiring day today is..
Hais..
Anyways,i really got to thank my broz-wanto n mimi..
Thank You so much guys!!
I dunno how to repay you guys..
U guys were really 1 in a million..
Really appreciate it..
Talking about appreciation...
Does it have to take alot of convincing to get appreciated?
After all dat had happened,i m still standing here by your side..
Cuz i noe my feelings are for real..
Cuz i believe i could make you mine someday..
Or can i?
Haha..
Love drivin me nuts..
Watever it is,
I'll try my best to get you see things the way i see..
cuz i love you..
Wat to do..
Already fallen,can't turn back now..
-sigh-